Peter Pan Syndrome

wow

2011-04-16T00:56:00.001+08:00

wow I can still access my blog... cool =)

the worst in me

2009-12-06T21:11:00.002+08:00

I had a huge fight with Ahn this morning.. it got so bad that I actually punched the window of my car... my hand is swollen and blue like crazy... but I don't think the pain compares to how I feel when we fight....

I don't understand how things escalated the way they did... I absolutely hate the way she can bring out the worst it me sometimes... Part of the reason is because she never always bring her pride higher and higher the longer the fight goes... It gets me crazy because I want to talk about the problem and she seemingly just wants me to get lost.

Sabi nya lagi naman daw nya ako inaalagan... well sorry, but I don't feel that way... yes, she cooks for me when I'm at her house... she buys me food when we're at work...

But honestly, I'd rather that she take care of my emotions... I'd rather that she just show me that she doesn't want to lose me... na sana when we fight, she doesn't act with so much pride all the time.

It just hurts so bad. =(

Welcome Back

2009-12-04T21:28:00.002+08:00

Wow....

It's been more than 2 years since I last blogged... pretty cool to look over my previous posts and see what a douche I was way back then... then again, I think I'm still a douche now. lol.

I think I need to keep a blog going for my own sanity... but I might be changing the name of the blog so I can keep my privacy.

Anyway, more to come...

People always leave

2007-04-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

I now recognize that I will never be happy... might as well be a hermit for the rest of my f%#ng life.

screaming infidelity

2006-12-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

I'm missing your bed, I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.

I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
You're not alone and you're not discreet.
You make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again,
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it:
"I'll love you always and forever"

As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs,
And sit alone and wonder, how you're making out.
And as for me I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone, making out.

I'm missing your laugh,
How did it break?
And when did your eyes
Begin to look fake?
I hope you were as happy as your pretending

I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
I am alone in my defeat
I wish I knew here we're safely at home

I'm missing your bed, I never sleep.
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak.
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.

Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs,
And sit alone and wonder...
How you're making out.
And as for me I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone...
Making out

Your hair it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities and taking its wear.
Your hair it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities and taking its wear.
Your hair it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities and taking its wear.
Your hair it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities and taking its wear

Team Building

2006-12-05T19:40:00.000+08:00

Elow

Nag team building kami last weekend sa Pansol, Laguna. All in all, 27 kami na pumunta sa outing. Dami noh? For me , nag-enjoy naman ako. saya-saya! =)

Syempre, pagdating namin dun... relax muna sandali.. yung mga naka-tokang magluto.. nag-setup na for dinner... at dun namin nalaman na naiwan pala namin yung mga groceries na binili namin for the trip sa office. =) hahaha. ayos di ba? nag-grocery pa tuloy sila ulit dun sa may Waltermart ba yun?

Anyway...ayun.. dinner was great! dami food!! hehe.. busog ako.. mga pitong beses ako nabusog. yummy!!

After that.. swimming na! Si chow, may hi-tech sya na digi-cam na waterproof!! ang galing galing talga!! hahaha. kung ano ano ginawa namin na pagkuha ng pic sa tubig.. aliw! Syempre, simula na rin ang inuman! wooohooo... at syempre medyo nalasing ako dba?

Which leads me to the part na medyo natakot ako.. kasi... sa habang umiinom ako.. bigla na lang ako nakaramdam ng pain sa chest ko... para bang ndi ako makahinga na ewan... sobrang sakit talga!! as in... taposdi ko na talaga kaya.. humiga na ako... takot na nga yung isa kong kasama.. gusto na daw ako isugod sa Manila.. hehe.. syetness.. Heartburn daw pala ang na nangyari sa akin.. cguro sobrang daming alak... puro acid.. di kinaya ng body ko.. ayun.. Naging ok na rin naman ako after several hours... mabait yung mga kasama ko.. inalagaan ako.. =)

Ayun... after ko gumaling.. swimming ako hanggang 8:00 am ng umaga.. tibay ko dba? hehe. Tapos brunch na.. hotdog and chicken sandwich! tapos ayun... ligo na... and then time to head home... Summary lang yung kwento ko.. dami pa katatawanan na nangyari.. hehe.. ay.. tapos sbux pala kami habang pauwi =) konti na lang.. buo ko na yung planner! yipeee!!!

sick

2006-11-23T08:35:00.000+08:00

I'm sick..

These are the times when you wish you weren't single.

I've never aside from my mom take care of me when I was sick... alam mo yun? someone who buys you chicken soup.. or wipes your forehead with a damp cloth.. nagpapainom ng medicine sa yo...

I'm not asking for a personal nurse ha!! hehe. wala lang.. basta ewan ko ba.. di ko maexplain

Anyway... nakakatamad na mag-ipon ulit nung starbucks card.. =( nakaka sad...

ano pa ba.. ala lang.. la ako magawa eh... ay... welcome back pala sa mga boracay babies! hehe. astig naman ng trip niyo.. enjoy sulit. glad you guys had fun!

Muy bien

2006-11-22T02:14:00.000+08:00

The heart never forgets, but your mind will never make you remember.

Last weekend

2006-11-18T09:33:00.000+08:00

Ok.. I wanna fill you in on what happened last weekend. hehe. Just so certain people will start believing me when I say na I do have a life and I'm not a loser ;-)

Last saturday, me, john , aron and anton went to a birthday party of one of their friends from cikatuna. The party was held in one of the resto's in Jupiter (forgot what is was called). Anyway, even if I barely knew the birthday celebrator (i read somewhere na the correct term is clebrator and not celebrant) i still mustered up enough guts to go. (kapal).

Hehe. After dinner, we transferred to Fiamma, which was a bar also along Jupiter street. The crowd was ok.. medyo high end.. inom lang kami konti.. got bored so we decided to transfer again.. pier 1 naman this time.

When we got to pier 1, there was no more space inside so medyo olats again because we had to drink on the balcony area. Ayos lang. Chill. Inom. In other words... olats.. kasi wala kami nakilalang girls.. LOLZ.

Sunday naman... ayun.. medyo tanghali na ako nagising.. too late to plan anything else so tambay na lang bahay ng barkada ko para maglaro ng PS2. Ang nilaro namin was Justice Leage Unlimited. Astig din naman. We got to use Superman, Batman, The Flash etc to beat up an bunch of bad guys. Mga bad cheetah kasi yung mga kalaban eh. ;-) (para sa yo yun kung binabasa mo man toh.. kilala mo kung sino ka... just so you know I'm thinking about you)

Ayon.. so that was my past weekend in a nutshell.. It is now Saturday morning, the start of another beer-filled weekend. I gotta go home and rest up. I'll see yah all in 2 days..

Ciao!

Random Thoughts
1.) Tangina.. mahal na ng sbucks.. dati mga 115 lang ang Venti.. ngayon 140 na
2.) line from "Alipin"...- "Pilit mang, abutin ang mga tala... " ;-) wahaha
3.) Go Manny Pacquiao!! wohooo.
4.) Gusto ko magtravel ulit.
5.) got my first 3g call last night.. taena astig.. haha (babaw noh?)

another blog song

2006-11-17T07:27:00.000+08:00

I Don't Wanna Know Lyrics

(Mario Winans)
I just can't believe this, man.
Just another night of these thoughts.
Can't get this outta my head, yeah.

Somebody said they saw you.
The person you were kissing wasn't me.
And I will never ask you.
I just kept it to myself.

(Chorus)
I don't wanna know
If you're playing me - Keep it on the low.
'cause my heart can't take it anymore.
and if you're creepin please don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't want to know.
(0o0o0h, baby.)

I think about it when I hold you.
When lookin' in your eyes - I can't believe.
I don't need to know the truth.
Baby, keep it to yourself.

(Chorus)
I don't wanna know.
If you're playing me - Keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
and if you're creepin', please, don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't want to know.

Did he touch you better than me? (Touch you better than me?)
Did he watch you fall asleep? (Watch you fall asleep, baby?)
Did he show you all those things? (0o0o0o0oh)
and the things you do to me (do to me, baby)
If you're better off that way,(Better off that way)
then it's more than I can say. (More than I can say)
If you want to do your thing,(Oh!)
Girl, then stay away from me.(Stay away from me, baby)

(P-Diddy)
I know when your where-abouts or how you movin'.
I know when you're in the house or when you crusin'.(uh-huh)
It's been proven - My love you abusin'.
I can't understand how a man got you choosin'.
Undecided, I came and provided my,
Undivided, you came and denied it.(Why)
Don't even try it I know when you lyin'. (Don't even)
Don't even do that I know why you cryin'.
I'm not applyin no pressure,
I just want to let you know,
That I don't want to let you go.(I don't want to let you go)
And I don't want to let you leave.
Can't say I didn't let you breath.
Gave you extra cheese. (come on)
put you in a SUV.
You wanted ice - so I made you freeze.
Made you hot like the West Indies.(That's right)
Now it's time you invest in me.
'Cause if not - then it's best you leave. (Holla, yeah)

(Mario Winans)
I don't wanna know.
If you're playing me - Keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
And if you're creepin', please, don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't want to know.
If you're playing me - Keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
And if you're creepin', please, don't let it show.
(0o0o0oh baby)
I don't wanna know.

THOUGHTS: naramdaman ko na to dati... yung tipong... kung niloloko mo, pwede bang huwag ka na lang magpahuli?

Amfness

2006-11-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

Nakakairita ang mga tao sa muno... kung pwede lang mambitin patiwarik ng mga taong walang kwenta...

breathe in... breathe out...

anyway... nagbadminton ako kahapon.. ayos lang... kakapagod.. isang laro pa lang.. hingal na ako...

ayon.. pasaway pa din ako sobra.. kelan kaya ako matututo? haay buhay

senti shit

2006-11-07T18:57:00.000+08:00

Ok... sa mga tao dyan... na sobrang heartbroken because the person they love doesnt love them back... this song is a MUST for you. Link to you tube is on the far right.. sa links section... enjoy..

SOMEDAY

Someday you’re gonna realize..
One day you’ll see this through my eyes..
By then I won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared

I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the last girl on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long..

Someday, someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see I wont even miss you
Someday someday...

Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

Cause...Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
Ooohhh...One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see I wont even miss you
Someday... i know someones gonna be there..

Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place...
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see I wont even miss you
Someday someday...

2006-11-03T05:52:00.000+08:00

hi guys.. click on the viedo from You Tube to see the toy I bought. hehe. We will be uploading our own video soon. Pero this is the video na naging inspiration namin... wahhahaa

update

2006-11-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

Lam niyo ba yung binigyan ko ng flower? galit pa din sa akin...

Do you know how you always say things that you don't really mean when you're angry or jealous? Hindi minsan ganon tayo? Sa sobrang hurt natin, we say mean things to try and get even with the person... Sometimes kasi, parang the pain is so unbearable na you have to lash out.. ayon, medyo ganon kasi yung nangyari sa amin...

Then i told her na next year na lang kami magusap ulit. Now, she says na ang dali dali ko daw sya iwan... na kayang kaya ko sabihin sa kanya yung ganon (2nd time na kasi to eh).

Ok, first of all.. seloso talga ako... sorry naman... Next point ko is.. hindi ko naman kayang gawin yung mga sinasabi ko... sobrang ako naman lagi yung gagawa ng paraan para makausap sya ulit... eh ngayon.... di ba I tried making peace with the rose nga.. pero it's not enough daw...

I miss her a lot... kahit friend lang niya ako... sobrang miss ko sya...

a rose

2006-10-31T06:49:00.000+08:00

Ok..

so ganito kasi...

tried making up with someone nung Saturday..I gave her a single pink rose as a token of peace... hmmm.. yoko kasi ng may galit sa akin eh...

Ayun... I left the rose sa may lobby namin, I told the guard to call up our department and ask for her and tell her she had a package waiting sa lobby. May kasama din card yung rose.. I just said sorry and I wanted peace..

Hmmm... I didn't stay long enough to see what her reaction was... I left maybe 30 minutes before the guard called her up...

La naman ako nakuha text or IM from her.. or email or anything to show what her response was... So last night, I asked her if she had liked it.. She had a formal curt reply... basically saying she liked it... ayon... I tried talking to her more.. pero isang sagot isang tanong naman sya... so yon...

Ewan ko... sinagot naman nya mga tanong ko ng maayos.. so siguro ok na yun...

So bakit kaya ganito pa din?

thank god it's friday

2006-10-28T06:37:00.000+08:00

Hello...

Grabehan.. sobrang hirap pumasok kagabi.. ang hirap bumangon sa kama...

Anyway, things are slow dito sa office... cguro because it's a Friday... Ayun, people were decorating our stations for Halloween. Harry Potter yung theme ng department namin. Nakakatawa yung mga idea na pinagsasabi ng mga tao. I even wanted to have a projector setup so we could have it project moving portraits ala the pictures in Harry Potter that move. =)

Hmm.. I miss playing poker... Di na kami nakakapaglaro dito... so if there are people reading this that know how to play No Limit Texas Hold 'Em, give a shout out so we can get a game going.

That's all.. Ciao!

Goodbye Nokia 7610

2006-10-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

Review of events for yesterday (Wednesday)

Disaster struck as soon as I got home yesterday morning... I felt around for my celphone in my pocket and soon realized that I had left my phone in the cab. SHIT!!

Nalungkot ako coz I really had no intentions of replacing my phone (kahit bulok at walang 3G) I thought about all the messages that were still there.. FYI, hindi kasi ako madalas magbura ng messages.. I think my inbox had like 1,700 messages?? or something like that... nalungkot ako when I thought back to those messages... some were as old as 2004 pa... haaaayy..

Anyway, so I had my sim blocked right away... and I just decided to get a replacement that night... After a few hours of sleep... I went to the mall and got a new handset.. a Sony Ericsson model... again, dahil sa pagkakuripot ko sa sarili ko... sobrang sakit sa akin maglabas ng pera sa bagay na I didnt have any plans to replace anytime soon.

So... if anyone is reading this blog... I have to ask you to please text me (same number) and please introduce yourself so I can update my phone. =)

That's it. Ciao!

petiks

2006-10-25T06:33:00.000+08:00

I told a friend of mine I'd blog more... and also add comments and a tag board.. so marshy, eto na ang mga request mo... lolz.

Anyway, here's what I did yesterday (Tuesday)

After my shift, I went to greenhills to splurge on some toys.. yeah yeah.. i know... tumatanda ako paurong... Anyway, it was my first paycheck for my new position so medyo nakainflunce yon sa urge to splurge ko. hehe.

After buying the toy, I went back to work and decided to catch some z's there rather than go home ... so ayun... rested up a bit, and then worked a little.

I had a conference call for work at 11:00 and then 11:30 pm... aside from that.. my schedule was pretty clear.. I just sent emails, and helped work the queue a litte bit.

During work, I kept playing a song by Freestyle called "Bakit iniwan na?"

Here are the lyrics:

Intro:
Ngunit...
Paano, nangyari na...
May mahal ka nang iba...

Naaalala pa
Ang kahapon na
Kay sarap at kay sigla
Naglaho na lang bigla

Akala'y ako lang
Ang iniisip mo
Ang iibigin mo
Hanggang...
Hanggang magpakailanman

Refrain:

Ngunit paano...
Nangyari na may mahal ka nang iba...
Pag- ibig kong ito'y
Nilisan mo na...

Chorus:

Bakit Iniwan Na
Ang puso kong ito
Bakit Iniwan Na
Ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo
Malilimutan ba kaya kita sinta
Anong nang gagawin ng puso
Kong ito ngayong wala ka na
oh..uhhhhh

Pinangarap na ikaw
Makakasama ko
Makakapiling ko
Sa habang buhay
Pag-ibig na tunay

Binigay na ang lahat
Lahat ng oras
At ang pagmamahal sa'yo
Para lamang sa'yo oh oh oh

Refrain:

Ngunit paano...
Nangyari na may mahal ka nang iba...
Pag- ibig ko sayo'y
Nilisan mo na...

Chorus:

Bakit Iniwan Na
Ang puso kong ito
Bakit Iniwan Na
Ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo
Malilimutan ba kaya kita sinta
Anong nang gagawin ng puso
Kong ito ngayong wala ka na

Bridge:

Ang matatamis na mga ala-ala
Nating dalawa
Tanging yan lang
Ang natitira.....

Refrain:

Ngunit paano...
Nangyari na may mahal ka nang iba...ohh
Pag- ibig kong ito'y
Nilisan mo na...ohhhh ahhhhh

Chorus:

Bakit Iniwan Na
Ang puso kong ito ohhhhhh...
Bakit Iniwan Na
Ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo
Malilimutan ba kaya kita sinta ohhhhhhhhh...
Anong nang gagawin ng puso ko...
(ano nang gagawin ng puso ko)
Ano nang gagawin ng puso kong...
Ito ngayong...
Wala...
Ngayong wala ka na

Wala lang... nakakalungkot lang... nakarelate ako sa song eh.. parang.. you spent so much time with someone, shared your plans and your dreams, people looked at you as a "couple" ... does that make sense? Yung tipong, kayo na talga magkakatuluyan sa mata ng ibang tao... and you thought the both of you would never want to be with anyone else... tapos the songs says na di siya makapaniwala na meron nang iba yung love niya...

It's such a sad song... I guess I'm just a sucker for punishment... I've heard people tell me to never let her show I'm hurting or na I'm sad because of her... Pero I've always been a person who wears his heart on his sleeve... Di ako magaling magtago ng feelings ko.. If I'm hurt, eh di I'm hurt... kung nagseselos ako , eh di nagseselos ako... yung tipong ganon. No games where you try acting you're feeling something other than what you really truly feel.

Anyway.. that's it for now.. I gotta go home. Ciao!

sabado nights

2006-10-23T15:56:00.000+08:00

I don't know if anyone still reads this.. but here goes...

Last Saturday was my Highschool homecoming. It turns out that my batch was the sponsors for that night. So, to show my support for my alma mater and my friend Sherwin, who works for my highschool now as a guidance counselor, I decided to attend the homecoming.

Raymond picked me up here at home. He had pictures of his 3 week old baby, Charles! Cute naman yung bata.. mabuti mana sa nanay at hindi kay Raymond. hahaha. Anyway, we went to school at 6:00 pm. When we got there, Sherwin came to greet us and we set off on a tour of the school where I had spent the best years of my childhood.

Damn, I have to say.. the place looked great. Parang may napuntahan na rin yung tuition na binayad namin dati. hehe. It made me feel good that the school had come such a long way from the previous mud caked walkways that I had to endure in elementary.

So since we were such early birds, we were the first ones there. We had to wait till about 7:00 pm for people to start showing up. I was happy that I got to spend some time with my bestfriend from highschool, Naomi. You see her on ABC 5 everynight working the news =) Sobrang proud ako dito sa kaibigan ko na ito...

So we got to talk about our respective problems and it turns out we were both recovering from failed relationships. Tsk tsk tsk... I wonder what's with this year... so many long lasting couples breaking up..

Anyway, after getting her achievement award during the program, me and Naomi took off. She didnt want to stay anymore and I had to meet some of my friends in Sikatuna.

So I got to sikatuna around 10 pm. Me and John went to a party in Lavista for one of his friends France. (nice name noh? hehe). When we got there, we didnt really know most of the crowd so we just took a couple of beers and started to drink the night away. After the beers, we started to drink the tequila... big mistake..

I got so drunk that I don't even remember how I got home.. well not actually home, John had me crash at his place since I was so wasted. Sobrang blackout talga.

When I woke up Sunday morning, I asked him if I had done anything to embarass myself. Wala naman daw masyado... phew! buti na lang!!

Nakakatawa pa kasi after the party, pumunta pa daw kami greenhills to meet some of his friends who were doing a karaoke party... haha. I was so wasted that he just left me in the car while he went inside to the ktv place.

To sum it all up.. it was a nice weekend...

Moving on...

2006-10-03T07:35:00.000+08:00

Anna Deroca... para sa yo to...

Ok.. eto kasi ang situation. The last time na nagkita tayo, which was sa pizza hut on August 8, 2006, marami ka pong sinabi nung night na yon. Mga pinangako mo na hindi mo ginawa.

Siguro ang pinakamasakit dun.. ni hindi mo man lang ako binigyan ng respeto na makipagkita ulit sa akin para tapusin ng maayos itong meron tayo.. alam ko feb pa tayo nagbreak.. pero nagkikita pa rin naman tayo, nagtetext at naguusap. Pag magkasama tayo, parang tayo pa din... so I think it would have been decent of you to at least meet with me para i-sort out lahat. Kahit respeto na lang.. sa 4 na taon na binuhusan kita ng pagmamahal, pagod at iyak.

Ayoko na magmukhang loser, pero the fact is minahal talaga kita... Ilang beses kita pinatawad sa lahat ng kalokohan mo at pagbabale-wala sa akin. Ang hiningi ko lang naman sa yo is yung ipakiat mo sa akin na naaappreciate mo yun and that you want to be with me.

Eh kaso sa iba mo pa ginawa yun. Pag pinaguusapan natin dati kung paano aayusin itong relationship natin.. lagi mo sinasabi wala ka time sa relationship, sabi mo wala ka naman na gusto na ibang guy, sabi mo di mo kaya magseryoso, sabi mo ang dami mo pa gusto gawin at ayaw mo magpatali sa boyfriend at this time.

So, I'm happy that you found someone who made you eat everything you said. If talagang sobrang naging reason sya para kalimutan ako, at lahat ng B.S. na pinakain mo sa akin, then he must be one heck of a guy. All I ever wanted was for you to do the things that I've read thru ur blog that you've managed to do for him. Ganun lang naman kasimple eh.. kaso di mo nakaya gawin for someone who did nothing but love you for 4 years, who never turned you away in spite of everything you've done wrong.. instead you found it easier to do it for someone who's been a part of your life for less than a year.

I hope he really does make you happy Anna... I hope he is what you are looking for.. I tried so hard to be the man who made you happy... and I thought for a long time na nothing could ever seperate us again.

Yet a combination of your infatuation with a 15 year old highschool girl, your officemates, and a passion for acting ended our relationship.

I don't know how to end this entry, so i'll just do the same thing you did and just it off without prior warning.

5 months, 27 days, 19 hours since you went away

2006-07-16T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hi all..

I haven't blogged for such a long time now. I know no one will probably read this, but it will feel good to say the things I want to say.

The biggest thing in my life, is that I have been single since February. It's been so hard to handle. Sobrang sinaktan ako nung ex ko.. and she still does. But what can I say? sobrang minahal ko sya.. kahit na lahat na ng pwedeng gawin na masama ginawa na nya yata... I never used to care.. all I wanted was to have her back.

I don't understand how it happened. I always told her that I don't know why we ended up like this. We were still ok on February 4, and then.. after 2 weeks.. on the exact day of our anniversary, we broke up. Well.. technically I broke up with her.. because she thought it was more important to see a cheering competition rather than to drop by at starbucks where I was waiting for her. The ironic part is, she wouldn't even have been able to attend the competition if it wasnt for me. You see the thing is, I was already waiting for her at Starbucks but it turned out she was still asleep. I called her and woke her up.. she got dressed and was on her way to meet me so we could watch the competition.. turns out she was more interested in the compatetion than celevrating our anniversary. =(

I was so hurt.. I packed up and headed home.. and that was it. We had broken up. Being the fool that I am, I couldn't bear to not have her.. so that same day, at 11 pm... I went to malate to try and look for her so we could work things out. I was using globe tracker to try and find where she was. But after 3 hours of searching through malate area, the tracker looked like it showed her going back home. I followed her home and that's where we got to talk. I said my side, she said hers. I walked away... hoping she would stop me... but she never did.. lagi naman ganon eh.. buti pa yung ibang things sa life niya... she fights tooth and nail just to be able to keep them.. ako? kahit isang beses, di nya pinaglaban... lagi nya ako pinapabayaan umalis. Ako naman tong gago.. ako pa hahabol...

to be continued.. have to work for a sec

new blog, same shit

2005-11-17T07:59:00.000+08:00

eto na ang gusto mo na post:

Patrick: *calling Anna on her cellphone*
Anna: *cancels call*
Patrick: *calls again*
Anna: *cancels again*
Patrick: *calls again*
Anna: *cancels again*
Anna: (text message)- D2 ko car eh
Patrick: (text message)- O tapos? Bat ayaw mo sagot?
Anna: (text message)- Maingay eh... Hehe... Sn kna?
Patrick: (text message)- Huh? Bkt di mo cnasagot eh asa car ka naman pala?

*Anna does not reply for 5 minutes, continues cancelling more of Patrick's calls*

Finally, Anna answers call of Patrick

Patrick: O? bakit ngayon mo lang sinagot?
Anna: Nasa kotse ako kanina eh, masyadong tahimik, ayoko sagutin kasi maingay.
Patrick: HUH?!
Anna: Ayoko lang sagutin.
Patrick: Wala naman sense yan eh
Anna: Eh basta ayoko lang. Bat ayaw mo na lang intindihin na ayoko lang siya sagutin.?

Patrick gets mad.

Anna: *talks to someone in the background*
Patrick: Pansinin mo naman ako
Anna: *laughs and thanks someone for giving her chocnut*

ETC ETC ETC...

PAULIT ULIT NA LANG. MAGBAGO KA NAMAN.

OOPS

2005-07-25T05:28:00.000+08:00

tagal ko na hindi blog...

tsk tsk tsk...

where to start....

well... ok na kami ni anna... hopefully it stays that way..

what else?

things are going fine at work... might get promoted... ;-) pray ka babykins... para makapag-shopping tayo... lolz...

I miss the simple life... haaaay....

2005-04-21T01:30:00.000+08:00

sakit

2005-04-21T01:14:00.000+08:00

Kung may nagbabasa pa nito.. salamat.

I'm too sad for words... I have been in love with a person for three years and 2 months. But for her, di pa rin ako worth it... kahit kelan, never niya sinabi sa akin na "i don't want to lose you" .. instead, ang lagi niya sinasabi sa kin is "ayoko na ng ganito..." or "hindi talaga tayo para sa isa't isa"

Everytime you left me, I always welcomed you back... wala ng sabi sabi... wala ng pahirap... basta I was glad to have you back in my life... and i just learned to live with the pain that all things you did caused me... tiniis ko lahat yon... pero it's still not enough.

If you look at your blog and your friendster, you're still protecting the other party's feelings... siya pa rin ang ayaw mo masaktan...

ako? Iniiyak ko na lang lahat ng sakit na binibigay mo sa akin.... ako yung lagi mong di inaalagaan... and yet, ako yung pinakanagmamahal sa yo.... kahit pagsamasamahin mo lahat ng kaibigan mo... wala pa sila sa kalingkingan ng concern at care na ibinigay sa yo...

Ako lang ang katangi-tanging tao na nasa tabi mo kahit na anong ginawa mong kasalanan. I was the only one who always stood by your side and believed in you.

Pero hindi eh... talagang kulang pa din....

Wala naman talab sa yo eh... pag sinabi ko lahat toh... wala... wala kang pakialam... parang sobrang sanay ka na na umiiyak ako sa yo at nagmamakaawa na mahalin mo ako...

wala na talab yung nagmamakaawa ako dahil sobrang sama ng loob ko na parang dumudugo na puso ko....

you don't even feel bad for hurting me...

yun ang masakit dun eh...

ayaw mo masaktan ang ibang tao, pero ako, ok lang na masaktan. and ang reason mo is dahil siya, pinapakilig ka niya... ako hindi.

hangganan

2005-04-12T09:52:00.000+08:00

malapit na.

SAD

2005-04-09T09:55:00.000+08:00

still sad...

sad sad sad...

I miss what we had before....
somehow, it just doesnt feel the same...

maybe I'm being neurotic...

I dunno...

miserable

2005-04-06T02:41:00.000+08:00

I dunno what I want in life anymore.

maybe I should just go the the States.

Perpetual emptiness

2005-03-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

I feel so empty...

Anna, if you're reading this... I want you to know how much I want you to be part of my life... how much I want things to work things out...

but,

you have to show me that you want this too... you have to show me naman na it's not one-sided.... you have to do your part too...

=(

Please baby... think about all we've been through... all our hopes and dreams...

don't throw everything we've worked so hard to build away...

please....

A song for my baby....

2005-03-04T18:23:00.000+08:00

Thought I heard your voice yesterday
When I turned around to say
That I loved you baby
I realize, it was just my mind
Played tricks on me

And it seems colder lately at night
And I try to sleep with the lights on
Every time the phone rings
I pray to God it's you
And I just can't believe
That we're through

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Is it turning over this time
Have we really changed our minds about each other's love
All the feelings that we used to share
I refuse to believe
That you don't care

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

I've got to gather myself as together
I've been through worst kinds of weather
If it's over now
Then I'll be strong
Can't believe that you're gone
I've got to carry over

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Oh there's no other way to say it
I can't deny it
I miss you baby
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Oh no other way to say it
I miss you baby
There's no other
That you're deprived of me now
That you're deprived of me now
I miss you
Said I can't deny it
I, I, I, I miss you baby
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

random thoughts

2005-03-04T07:16:00.000+08:00

Why is it that you never seem to care if you hurt me or not?

I don't know where my career is going. I miss programming.

Don't you feel anything when we hug?

The senior vice-president of AT&T is coming to visit. Oh no!

I wish my job paid more.

My desk is very messy.

*sadness*

TORTURE

2005-02-28T07:44:00.000+08:00

I've been awake for more than 24 hours now...

i've had one song play again ang again in my head

I look into your eyes, so far away
There's trouble on your mind, you're losing faith
Hey now, let me hold you, it'll be OK
Cause I will love you till they take my heart away
Remember when you called and said goodbye
You thought we'd lost it all and so did I
But even if I'd lost you, I would feel the same
I will love you till they take my heart away
Believe I'm here to stay
I will love you till they take my heart away
Now we're stronger than before, we've made it through
I've never felt more sure because of you
Hey now, are you listening, can you hear me say?
I will love you till they take my heart away

Believe in me, I'm here to stay
I will love you till they take my heart away

HURT

2005-02-26T02:15:00.000+08:00

Hurt me...... then hurt me even more. That's what you're doing..... That's how low I feel..... Maybe someday.... you'll realize the errors of your ways.... pero umaasa lang ako.... dahil alam ko na ndi mo naman ako babalikan.... alam ko na wala ka naman talaga pakialam.... bakit ganon? ang sakit.... ndi ko na madescribe kung gaano kasakit ang mga sinasabi mo... ang mga ginagawa mo....

Quotes from you:
"Nasanay na ako na wala ka"

"Wala na akong nafi-feel"

"Wala na ako pakialam kung nagkikita tayo or hindi"

"Ok lang sa akin kahit wala ka sa buhay ko"

Things you did:

Friendster mo...

Blog mo...

Naiirita pag tumatawag ako...

Lying....

taking me forgranted....

treating me so badly...

ano po ba nangyari? Nasaan na yung Babykins ko?
Nasaan na yung girl na inalagaan ko ng 3 taon... yung girl na kitang-kita ng lahat ng tao sa paligid ko na sobrang mahal na mahal ko... nasaan na yung girl na sinabi na di na nya ako iiwan? yung baby ko na sinabi na hindi na niya uulitin yung maging monster.... nasaan na yung girl na laging sinasabi sa akin na wag ko kakalimutan na mahal nya ako? Nasaan na yung girl na sinasabi na proud sya sa na accomplish ko sa work? ASAN NA SYA? *cries*

Wag mo naman ako ganitohin....

ang sakit sakit sakit...

kung pwede lang i-express ng maayos yung emtotions ko ... pero nde eh... kulang lahat ng salita sa mundo....

para ako tanga.... kahit kelan, di mo ako hinabol... =( tapos sinasabi mo na ayaw mo muna maging tayo.... ano po ba ibig sabihin non? standby lang ako dito?? alam ko na sasabihin mo susunod: "Eh di wag ka maghintay"....

*cries*

tangina eh.... ang sakit....

A broken heart

2005-02-18T18:24:00.000+08:00

There are no words to desribe how sad I feel.

I act like nothing is wrong... I joke with my officemates... I hang out with friends....

but whenever I find the time to think... I always think of you...

You are probably too busy preparing for other things to even think about me...

I've loved you with everything I have... I've done everything I could to make you love me... to try and make me part of your life...

I pushed the limits of my body just to make time for you...
I pushed the limits of my mind to try and understand your decisions sometimes....
But most of all, I've pushed the limits of my heart for you Anna ...

I only want to be special.... I only want to feel loved... I only want to feel, that you actually put importance on having me in your life....

But each time there is a chance for you to prove your love , you disappoint me.... and it hurts so bad...

I don't know what else to say.... I hope you're happy... you got what you wanted...

I have to go now... it's time to try and mend a broken heart.

SAD

2005-02-02T08:50:00.000+08:00

I'm sad....

wala lang...

sad ako sa yo.... I try to to make you feel so special.... and I know dapat walang kapalit yun.... pero sometimes... wala lang.. syempre gusto ko din naman matuwa... gusto ko rin maramdam yung "kilig".... Dati may ganon eh... may kilig moments... ngayon, bihira na lang....

TEQUILLA

2005-01-30T09:16:00.000+08:00

Una sa lahat. MALIGYANG KAARAWAN sa aking bespren kittykat. through tears and laughter, pader kita na lagi kong sinasandalan. thank you sa lahat.

Pucha, sabig ako dun sa tequilla...

pagkahatid ko kay anna.. nakatulog kami sa kwarto niya.. tabi kami sa bed...
yung mga manyak dyan, pakibura ang mga malalaswang imahen sa isipan niyo... mabait po ako na bata =)

anyway, ayun... nakita kami ng mom nya na magkatabi sa bed... kakahiya talaga... =(

Sorry po tita and tito... di na po mauulit yon...

Next, I would like to say..... GO GINEBRA!! tangina! yess!!! ang lupit!! ang sarap ng feeling na maging kasama sa Barangay ngayon... pwede maging back to back champion =) astig...

Work is good.... toxic, but good...

medyo yari lang ako sa QM report ko.... di ko pa tapos.... hindi ako makabarge ng maayos eh... madami kailangan tulungan... pero oks lang yon.

Masarap tumulong

ayon....

All work and no play

2005-01-21T19:11:00.000+08:00

I love working...
I like seeing how far I can work before my body starts to break down...

Of course, it doesnt hurt that I'm getting paid to work, but still, I ilike the challenge of doing the best job I possibly can.

My friends in college would never believe that I have never been absent for work. =)

My birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks... sana may magregalo naman sa akin. wala na kasi nagreregalo sa akin except sa mom ko, si kats and, of course, my beautiful girlfriend. Parang nung christmas, 3 gifts lang ang nakuha ko =( ang lungkot noh? ( si mama, anna at si sir jay) speaking of which, hoy kats, kelan tayo magbibigayan ng regalo? =) 2 gift na utang ko sa yo. Belated ha? sorry kung di kita nabati personally. medyo toxic sa work

wala lang. miss ko kasi yung feeling pag kid, tapos ang dami ko regalo... gusto ko ganon ulit. para masaya. di naman kailangan mahal na regalo eh, kahit ano lang.

Babykins... thank you for everything... don't worry, we're gonna have a great anniversary. Promise ko yan sa yo. =) I'm so proud of you! alam mo ba yon?! galing mo sumayaw, mag-act... you're funny, witty and sexy! tapos pasado na kayo sa Thesis!! congrats!! =) I love you po.

Christmas

2004-12-25T05:06:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas world!

Things I am thankful for:

1.) my health
2.)my gorgeous girlfriend
3.)the best mom in the world.
4.)my job.
5.)the little things in life that make you smile and say "What a wonderful world..."
6.)si kittykat =)

I am flat BROKE and need cash soon.

REBORN

2004-12-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

I haven't posted here in awhile.

I've been caught up in work... and my pc's been busted for the last 3 months...

i dont know what to write about...

I wish everybody's christmas wish comes true...

no one should feel hurt or lonely pag xmas season... if i were a senator.. i'd pass a law that bans feeling sad during the holidays...

we should always look at the positive side of every situation~ yeah right! meron talagang ibang sitwasyon na walang dinudulot na mabuti...

ayon... i'll make a much better blog tomorrow... when i'm feeling better...

paramdam ka naman babykins... kakatampo ka eh...

para sa yo to anna

2004-09-26T04:10:00.000+08:00

Negative Things- Selwyn

Listen baby
I wonder why sometimes we fall apart oh yeah
Together we are so wonderfull yeah baby
And every single day i pray, that really things shouldnt never be this way
Im only tryin to be a better man

Refrain:
Why then do you see all the negative things, in me?
Cos all i ever do is try to be, all that i can be
Girl you know your hurting me, all the things you say to me
As i lie at night im imagining things, how it used to be, girl you know your
hurting me
What am i to do with a broken heart?

All the time everybody say that you and me are over
But i know were meant to be together for eternity
Was it untrue what we promised each other?
Baby my heart keeps telling me
That it shouldnt be this way forever
Im only tryin to be a better man

REFRAIN

Girl remember when, we made our promices?
That we would be together through-out every single thing
Now im only trynna be a better man, but you've never noticed that
Girl i truely love, to be around you
And baby ill give you anything you want me to
Cos i know this might be hard for you,
And i know that we will be

Why then do you see all the negative things, in me?
Cos all i ever do is try to be, all that i can be
Girl you know your hurting me, all the things you pray to me
As i lie at night im imagining things, how it used to be, girl you know your
hurting me
What am i to do with a broken heart?

nice song

2004-09-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

Falling
by Keahiwai
Album
:
I wanna tell you baby
That you're the one that Im thinking of
But your heart is still with her
And I think she's the one that you love
I only want you happy
Even if it's not with me
Maybe one day
You'll open up your eyes and you'll see

[Chorus]
That I think I'm falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yeah I think I'm falling
Baby I'm falling for you

[Verse 2]
From the first time
You laid your lips on mine
It feels like the smile on my face
Will last till the end of time
But Im not so sure
You're the one that I should pursue
My mind tells me no
But my heart only says that it's you
[Chorus]

Bridge:
Only time will tell
The mystery has yet to unfold
Who's gonna feel love's warmth
And the other left in the cold

[Chorus]
Yet still I'm falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yeah I think I'm falling
Baby I'm falling for you
That I think I'm falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yeah I think Im falling
Baby I'm falling for you

another night, another day...

2004-08-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

I am here at work right now...

I just got a call... RAS account sya.... dapat hindi sa akin pumasok ito... and when I asked the caller, she informed me na password reset lang kailangan nya.... again, di ko trabaho ito... ito ay isang misrouted call... so binigay ko ang tamang # na kailangan nya na department....

Haaay....2 hours na ako naka IN... 5 calls pa lang ako kaya medyo ok naman... at wala pa naman akong badtrip na call.... wala lang.... la ako magawa dito... iniisip ko si anna... nakatingin lang ako sa picture niya....

ayan, kakatapos ko lang ng isa pang call.. password reset nanaman..... so again, misrouted sya.... dati ako kasama ako sa grupo ng gumagawa ng password reset... malas nya dahil kailangan pa nya tumawag sa ibang number...

haaay..... whattalife....

PUTANG INA1

2004-07-29T02:19:00.000+08:00

na hold up ako sa FX
bbye 6210!

TANGINA NIYONG 3 HOLDAPER KAYO!!! MAMAMATAY DIN KAYO!

BULOK NA NGA CEL KO NINAKAW NIYO PA!@
HAYUP!

The Daily Prophet

2004-07-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

Sports-- What the FUCK are the Lakers thinking?!?! Trading away the MOST dominant center in the NBA for Lamar Odom (great potential, but not even an all-star yet), Caron Butler (Sophomore Slump casualty) and Brian Grant (old, undersized and overmatched). Tell me I'm dreaming.... Hey! stop pinching! oh shit... that hurts, so it means I'M NOT DREAMING. Shaq is a Laker no more.

Politics -- if I were a relative of the Filipino hostage in Iraq, I'd probably do the same things they've done, which is to beg and plead with the government to pull out that peace-keeping contingent from Iraw. However, you have to admit that basically, the government has been pushed over by a group of terrorists. What happens if terrorists want something from the government from now on? They'll go kidnap more hostages. Why? Because it works. Because the Philippine government negotiates with terrorists.

Work-- everything's ok I guess.. I've been chosen, along with 19 other agents, to be trained on VPN protocols in order to handle a higher support group. Who knows? maybe it'll even lead to a raise in pay (yeah right!)   btw, I am again, VERY happy with my pay-slip. hehe.


Family-- Everything's going as well as I can hope for. Just had Buchok's 2nd bday celebration 5 days ago. It made me want to be a kid again .I'd love to buy that Optimus Prime robot I saw in Toy Kingdom.... (P 5,500, di na uy! celfne na yun eh!)

Friends-- I miss my friends. I miss my highschool friends, I miss my college friends. that's it I guess... I just plain miss em. Paramdam naman kayo. Yun nga lang, malamang tulog ako kapag nagparamdam kayo, pero paramdam parin kayo. hehehe.

Love--   HAPPY 29th MONTHSARY BABYKINS!  We've been together for a long time (compared with the average longevity of other relationships) I want you to know that I really appreciate everything you do to take me happy, sad, excited, scared, angry, jealous etc... You know why? Because it means we're in a real relationship, the type of relationship which make us experience real feelings. The wide range of emotions we go through means that this relationship actually means something, not just for me but for you as well. And for that, I thank you.

I love you Anna.

WOW

2004-06-30T02:50:00.000+08:00

natuwa ako sa payslip ko ngayon. niyahahaha. yun lang. =)

PUTANG INA!

2004-06-21T08:13:00.000+08:00

tang ina!

June 14-20
HOLD TIME: 0:03:16
Calls put on hold: 31
Calls handled: 142
After-Call: 0:01:13
Talk-time: 0:04:39
Handle time: 0:09:08

Eto yung target dapat! pakshit!
SLA Password
METRIC 30 DAYS TARGET
Average Talk Time 0:05:00
Average Hold Time 0:01:00
Average ACW Time 0:01:00
Average Handle Time 0:07:00

For you Anna....

2004-06-19T15:25:00.000+08:00

"The Reason" - HOOBASTANK

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

the graveyard

2004-06-13T09:09:00.000+08:00

One thing about the job I have is that I am able to go to work at night. And for thos people who know me, they know that I am a notoriously tardy person when it comes to morning appointments (7 am to 10 am) And working graveyard shifts also gives me the added bonus of going to work without being stuck in traffic.

Of course, the drawback is that I'm usually asleep during the hours that most people are awake. I miss my babykins terribly... And I am up to the mercy of of my schedule as to when I will be given my restday so that means I cant plan anything in advance.

To be honest, I am feeling a certain satisfaction from my job right now. It really does feel good to help other people out, as corny as that may sound. Although from time to time, I think about how it would feel to be a programmer... how it would feel to be writing lines and lines of code...

The thing that concerns me most is thinking about the career path ahead of me... Do I actually have a future in this business? I've always told myself that the moment I feel that I'm not enjoying my work, then I'd had in my resignation asap. I do hope that I'd have the conviction to push through with that if ever I do encounter that situation in the future.

on and on.... we just keep on going...

2004-05-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

hhmmm... what to write about? well... there's my work... and I have to say... enjoy naman ako... kahit nakakapagod magisip. hehehe. I got my first paycheck last friday....

6,083 basic pay

- 1,114 (2 days "absent" coz of the cut-off)
597 (tax)
----------
4,371 ang take home ko...

ayun lang... pwede na rin sapagkat wala naman night diff, OT at hazard pay yun dahil training lang...

ok naman ang magiging shift ko this week... 9 pm to 6 am. madali bumiyahe papasok at ok na din umuwi... at hazard pay pa ;)

anyway... i just want to do good in this job dahil yun lang naman ang pwede gawin ng isang tao... just do your best at whatever you do. bahala na ang Diyos sa gantimpala mo. and if ever in the future na ma feel ko na di na ako masaya sa trabaho na ito. resign na ko dude! (parang note-to-self ito. hehe)

Babykins ko... mahal na mahal kita... lalampasan natin lahat ng pagsubok na ito... pasensya na kung mainit ang ulo ko at muntik na ako mapaaway sa party... next time, I'll just punish you instead ;)

I LOVE YOU ANNA!

Carpe Diem

2004-05-21T02:16:00.000+08:00

Well, well well... it's been much to long since my last entry and I would again like to apologize to my non-existent readers for the delay in posting. Anyway, post-assessment exams are scheduled for today *gulp* I hope I do well. Bahala na si Batman. Goodbye BCT, Hello OSMA!

I went out with my darling girlfriend today. We spent some much needed quality time. =) hehe. I love you baby! Don't worry, one day all our dreams will come true. Just keep believing in me ok?

OT UNEMPLOYED

2004-05-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

Tech support.. yeah yeah... I know... I sold out. But who knows? I actually might have fun?

right now... I need to learn the Schwa sound for American English Optimization. *lolz* bye!

DREAM PC

2004-05-05T18:27:00.000+08:00

lot of stuff happening in my life... can't quite find the words to describe them so I won't. hehe. Anyway let me share my dream PC with the blogging community

processor
Intel P4 3.2 GHz 800 MHz FSB --- P 16,950.00

motherboard
Asus P4C800- E-deluxe, Intel 875 chipset 8x AGP --- 11,350.00

memory
512 MB PC400 DDR--- 5,900.00

hard drive
120 gig Seagate Barracuda 7200 rpm--- 5,400.00

video Card
Inno3D FX 5950 Ultra 256 ddr VIVO 8x--- 24,500.00

monitor
19" Samsung 955 Dyna Flat--- 11,500.00

LG 8x DVD writer--- 8,500.00

Wacom Graphire Pen Tablet--- 4,300.00

case
Thermaltake Xaser3--- 9,000.00

speakers
Altec Lansing FX6021--- 14,700.00

sound card
Creative Audigy DE 5.1--- 4,150.00

Logitech MX300 Optical mouse --- 1,700.00

APC-USA Back UPS 650va--- 5,800.00

power supply
Enermax 430w ATX--- 3900.00

floppy drive--- 390.00
______________
TOTAL: Php 128,040.00

Despair in the Political system (part two)

2004-04-28T00:57:00.000+08:00

Ok.. here are a couple more of my thoughts on the state of politics in our country..

Political Dynasties.- What are political dynasties? well, in my own words, i'd simply say that political dynasties are the result of the domination of one particular family over elected positions. The 1987 constitution prohibits the existence of political dynasties. And yet, as we look around the political landscape today, we see that our country is full of these dynasties.

Descendants of these families bank on the popularity of the surname they are born with. And this is where I think the problem begins...

Being born with a certain surname should not give you the right to be the "heir" to a certain position. One candidate that comes to mind is Pia Cayetano,the daughter of the late Rene Cayetano. Pia seems to be qualified to be a senator, she graduated from UP and is a lawyer. She also seems to be able to express herself quite well.

But the problem is... she is basically a political neophyte... she has no experience of actually holding an elected position in government. So therefore, she is relying on her family name to carry her to a senatorial seat.

Politicians are like kids fighting in a playground

Honestly, if you listen to the way these candidates reason out, you'd think that you were listening to a couple of pre-schoolers argue about who they think is the best superhero. I mean... god damn! These are the people running for the highest political positions in the land. And to hear them argue the issues makes me question if they even have the competence to form an intelligent thought.

true case:

Pia Hontiveros: Sen. Enrile, do you think that the recent surveys that show FPJ trailing Pres. Arroyo are fixed or tampered with?

Juan Ponce Enrile: Yes of course.

Pia: Why do you say that?

Enrile: Well because we all know that FPJ is number one, no one can beat him and he will win this election. The surveys are wrong because there is no way FPJ can lose.

HUH?!?!?! WTF?! That conclusion would be laughed at in every college debate. I didnt hear you guys complaining when the surveys were pointing to an FPJ victory. Now that he is second, you suddenly say that the surveys are wrong?
I swear... if i could compile all the lame-ass answers that these guys give, I'd have enough material to have a best-selling jokebook.

CANDIDATES NEVER LOSE, THEY ARE JUST CHEATED
This is a well known fact... The losing candidates come up with every possible excuse... The surveys are tampered, dagdag bawas, vote buying, flying voters.. etc etc...

Here is a cuckoo plan that Kit Tatad (opposition party) told the media yesterday:
He said the administration party plans to apply indelible ink on the fingers of voters for the opposition , a day before the elections , to prevent them from being able to vote.

*rolls eyes*

(to be continued)

'till you do me right ...

2004-04-23T17:37:00.000+08:00

I wish that all the pain could go away...
I wish that your words and actions can't hurt me this way...
I wish that you'd find a way to understand...
I wish there was a way that I could just be numb to everything...
I wish I could just get away...

How i wish...

Despair in the Political system

2004-04-23T01:27:00.000+08:00

I'd like to think of myself as a concerned citizen of this country. I read the newspaper daily, watch the evening news and monitor the value of the Peso. However, I must say, our government is almost a hopeless case, that would take at LEAST 2 generations to fix.

Let us start with our elections...

1.) Most of the electorate would rather have the candidates dance "otso-otso" and sing "Pamela-one" rather than have an active discussion of ISSUES. Pathetic. We claim that we have learned from our past mistakes and the two EDSA's but alas, the situation is even worse than before. Barely do we see an active discussion of ISSUES but rather what we have is terribly annoying vehicles blaring thru the streets with their stupid campaign jingles.

2.) The COMELEC had 3 YEARS to prepare for the modernization of the upcoming elections and what did they do? THEY SCREWED UP IN ALMOST EVERY POSSIBLE WAY IMAGINABLE! Tancangco should be dragged out to the street and shot, not just once but a hundred times. There have been so many anomalies concerning that bitch of a chairperson but sadly impeachment cases against her have never prospered. As a result of the COMELEC's huge blunders, we are once again forced to hold the elections through a "mano-mano" vote tabulation. And to think that they say that we're living in the 21st century. HA! yeah right!

3.) SANA WAG NAMAN PALIPAT LIPAT NG PARTIDO ANG MGA PUTANG INANG KANDIDATO NATIN. Ang bawat partido ay dapat kumakatawan sa mga prinsipyo na gusto niyo ipaglaban. So kung palipat lipat kayo, ang ibig sabihin ba non ay pabago-bago din ang prinsipyo niyo?

4.)Politicians spend an inordinate amount of MONEY just to be elected. Let's take the case of the Presidency. A presidential candidate will spend roughly about 1 BILLION pesos throughout the course of a campaign. Naturally, if elected, that candidate would spend the time that he is in power to get back the pesos that he spent. Human nature. If these so called public servants really want transparency is government, they should publish the list of their campaign contibutors and how much they "donated" That way, we would know the persons who are owed "favors"

(to be continued...)

Tension of Opposites

2004-04-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

wow. angas. nice book.

kinda makes me wonder... you see I'm the kind of person who does place some value on material things... i mean... c'mon... we all have to be realistic here... Money is important, especially when you start having your own family.

That's why I'm so fascinated with Morrie. Here was a guy who was genuinely not interested with material possessions, except perhaps his books. I guess he is the epitome of what a true teacher is supposed to be like.

Unfortunately, I didnt encounter a teacher quite like Morrie during my days in the Acadeem... Someone who taught me not only about academics, but taught me how to become a better person.

I will try to apply as many lessons from to book to my own life, although I know that this will prove to be quite a challenge. And I hope that when the time comes that I am about to pass away from this earth, I would have touched even half the lifes that Morrie did.

Kobe hits one over Jordan!

2004-04-14T12:02:00.000+08:00

The NBA playoffs are approaching... Anyway, if you are an NBA fan or are interested in this blog entry, then please do read on...

Patrick's year end awards:

MVP- Kevin Garnett
This guy is just solid: 24.2 ppg 13.9 rpg 2.2 blk 5 ast
and the Twolves could have the best record in the Western conference. Duncan could have made it a much closer race but he missed several games due to injuries.

Defensive Player of the Year- Ron Artest
He is the best On-the-Ball defender in the league. Period.

Rookie of the Year- Lebron James
He gets the nod over Carmelo Anthony simply because he had to carry a tremendous amount of pressure and hype at the age of 18.

Coach of the Year- Hubie Brown
If the Jazz made the playoffs I would have to say Jerry Sloan gets this award. However, the Grizzlies have won 50 games this year. Yes you read right... FIFTY! This means that the grizzlies are going to the playoffs for the first time in franchise history.

6th man- Al Harrington
Antawn Jamison is NOT a sixth man. He is a starter put into a sixth man role due to circumstances in Dallas ergo I don't think Jamison should win this award. Harrington is the classic 6th man... He scores, provides energy, plays sloid defense, dishes out assists and grabs rebounds.

Most Improved- Zach Randolph
20 pts and 10 reb average for this season. Last year he was a bench warmer. 'Nuff said.

All NBA 1st team
C- Shaquille O'Neal
F- Kevin Garnett
F- Tim Duncan
G- Kobe Bryant
G- Tracy McGrady

All NBA 2nd team
C- Yao Ming
F- Jermaine O'Neal
F- Peja Stojakovic
G- Allen Iverson
G- Jason Kidd

NBA CHAMPIONS
Lakers over Pacers in 6 games.

merville

2004-04-13T03:17:00.000+08:00

Alam niyo po... wala sa akin kahit gaano kalayo pa kita kailangan ihatid.. or kung gaano kahirap umuwi sa bahay ko dahil wala pa ko kotse... pero sana naman po... kung alam naman ninyo na medyo di ko kabisado ang daan pauwi.. sana maisip mo na mahintay naman ako makauwi ng bahay...

bakit ko nasabi yon? sapagkat kung ako ay hinintay mo makauwi.. ang ibig sabihin nun ay ikaw ay nag-aalala sa aking kaligtasan habang ako ay papauwi. Ngayon, kung lagi mo na lang akong tinutulugan kapag ako ay pauwi pa lamang ... ano ang ibig sabihin non?

Tingin ka sa salamin... siguro makukuha mo din ang sagot sa tanong na iyon.

RSS

2004-04-12T02:22:00.000+08:00

What the hell is RSS?

dum di dum di dum

2004-04-08T22:26:00.000+08:00

I have not been keeping an active blog lately.. my apologies to my (non-existent) readers...

hmm.. what to write about... well my dearest girlfriend got home from Boracay today... and as evident in my last blog, I had a very difficult time grasping the fact that she was in Boracay having fun while I was cooped up in my house dying of boredom. I missed her so much... mabuti na lang she's home na.... I love you Babykins.

Buchok is sick =( He has a fever and the poor kid has been irritable all day long...

I have to find a job soon... being a Bum isn't a good thing... If i don't find a job I love, then I hope I'd at least find a job that PAYS well which would eventually help me start my own business which is my goal anyway. Being an employee for life is a major DRAG.

BABYKINS ITO YUNG PAPADALA KO DAPAT NUNG NASA BORACAY KA:

WISH LIST

1. 80 GB HD

2. MMS enabled cellphone

3. Digital Camera

4. annual subscription to PC World Philippines

5. DSL

2004-04-05T23:49:00.000+08:00

GANITO NA LANG

I'LL JUST KEEP MYSELF BUSY PARA DI KITA MA MISS MASYADO! PARA DI NA KITA KINUKULIT!!!!! PARA DI AKO TAWAG NG TAWAG EVERY HOUR!!!!! I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN THERE ALL BY YOURSELF!

2004-03-29T23:31:00.001+08:00

Back to the Future

Wow... tagal ko na pala di nagppost dito....

I've put off writing about my graduation. I still dont know exactly what to write about it...

The pics above are the reason why I haven't been able to focus on looking for a job (childish I know!) The game is Need for Speed: Underground. I'll probably get bored with the game in a few weeks... but then that would lead me to my 2nd hobby nowadays...

BADMINTON. Yes. I've joined the bandwagon. I have to say. The game is cool. Minimum physical load but a great workout...

Geez... I just realized that I have to write about a lot of things.. hmm... I went on a swimming trip with my baby and her friends last friday. We scoured the Laguna area for a nice CHEAP private pool and wound up in a place that cost us 2,500 from 12 pm to 8 pm. I had a lot of fun just relaxing in the pool and playin around with my Baby. :)

Hopefully, it'll be the first of many more swimming trips this summer.

Random Thoughts

1. I miss the chonggos, especially my bestfriend.

2. Babykins, don't worry about it... papalitan ko na lang yung nawala.

3. I need a damn job.

4. Sexy ng baby ko :)

5. Buchok will be a fine young man someday.. I'll make sure of it.

2004-03-18T00:59:00.000+08:00

switching sides

I served as a panelist for the defense of the third year IM students 2 days ago... They had to prepare a feasibility study for the implementation of a computerized system for an existing business (which they all happened to own. hehe.) It was ok I guess... except that only consisted of documentation. Let me be honest for a second.. I HATED the documentation part of my thesis... the actual system is where all the fun is...

Anyway, there I was... actually feeling what it was like to question nervous looking kids and offering tips on how to improve their systems. I spent half the time eating and half the time checking the grammar on the documentation =)

Yesterday, I also got to be a panelist for another defense... this time there would be actual systems that were to be presented (HOORAY!). I have to admit, there were some systems that shouldn't have been giving a passing grade (I dont want to sound arrogant or anything, just telling the truth) but I passed them anyway. And to think that I went to the defense with REVENGE in mind =)

Good luck to all those 3rd year students. My advise to them is: Screw the system before the system screws you!

Anna... tinulugan mo nanaman ako... pero anyway, HAPPY MONTHSARY! I LOVE YOU.

Quote of the week: "Pero inurirat mo nanaman ako!" =(

2004-03-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

RAINBOW- SOUTH BORDER

fallin out fallin in
nothings sure in this world no no
breaking down breaking in
never knowing what lies ahead
we can really never tell it all no no

say goodbye say hello
to a lover or friend
sometimes we could never understand
why some things begin then just end
we can really never have it all
no no no ohh

but oh, cant you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
and so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see
how beautiful life is for you and me

REFRAIN:

take a little time baby
see the butterfly's colors
listen to the birds that were sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to be

(and)even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

hittin high hittin low
win or lose you should go
yeah yeah
getting warm getting cold
weather can be so good or bad
but baby this is life so dont get mad
no no no

coz ohhh
can't you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
and so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see
how beautiful life is for you and me

(REFRAIN)

life's full of challenges
not all the time we get what we want
but dont despair my dear
you'll take it each trial
and you'll make it through the storm
coz you're strong
my faith in you is clear
so i say once again
this was wonderful and
let us celebrate life that's so beautiful
so beautiful...

(REFRAIN)

2004-03-13T18:12:00.000+08:00

Yehey! Nandito si patrick sa house namin.... 0=) Hehehehe.... bwisit! Sabi ko tanggalin nayung sounds kasi bumabagal tong pc kong bulok! Ahehehe...

Mamaya ggmik kami sa south! Celebration dahil tapos na defense namin at madami pa din kmi ggwin! 0=/ Napakabait nitong hunny ko kasi BIG help siya samin! Wahahahhaha! Sana parati na lang thesis para everynight andito hunny ko chaka ************.... Hihihihhihihi 0;)

Anyway, summer na nanaman! HINDI KO NA PO PAPAIYAKIN SI PATRICK DAHIL BUONG SUMMER NAMIN ICCELEBRATE YUNG 2ND ANNIV NAMIN na hanngang ngayon ay wala pa kaming nagagawa... 0=) Basta pa hatid sundo mko sa ojt! Joke! Ayun lang... o sige na, mag-aayos nko! Hehehehe... bbye! Mag ppkkasaya nanaman kmi... chiao! MMMMwwwah!

2004-03-13T13:14:00.000+08:00

anger management

Wow. ang daming naglabas ng angst kagabi... si Joy, Kat, xilentrage, koree.... ang lupit.. kung nababasa niyo ito... pansinin niyo ang mga blog natin ... astig....

2004-03-13T02:43:00.000+08:00

dazed and confused

nawawala yung tsinelas ko... hanap na lang siguro bago...

anyway... what to tell?.... hmm... eto muna... HOY MGA PUTANGINA NIYO... MALI ANG PINAGBIBINTANGAN NIYO MGA ANIMAL KAYO. MGA INUTIL KASI KAYO SA TRABAHO NIYO. DE PUTA!

He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named: maawa ka naman. tama na. tumigil ka na.

BABYKINS KO: *HUG* GUD LUCK SA DEFENSE MAMAYA. I LOVE YOU

Waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................... tangina.. puro profanities itong log na ito... wala lang.. eh masarap magmura eh. aminin mo! di ba? di ba? SARAP murahin ng mga taong karapatdapat murahin? MGA TANGINA NILA. TANGINANG MUNDO TO. putang inang BEC YAN. ANG LAKING JOKE!!!!!

PAKSHIT na BUHAY ito!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TANGINA MO FPJ! pag nanalo ka.... amputa.. basta ... LECHE KA

HOY EARL!!!!!!!!! PUTA ANG INA MO! TANDAAN MO! PAG NAKITA KITA, IHAHAMPAS KO MUKHA MO SA PADER, TAPOS KIKISKIS KO YANG ^^%% MO SA PAPEL DE LIHA HANGGANG MAPUDPOD YAN.

TANGINA MONG LINTIK KA!

WALANG PARI, PULIS o POLITIKO NA MAKAKAPIGIL SA PAGPAPADUGO KO SA BUONG MUKHA MO!!!!!! PAG NATAPOS AKO SA YO, BALDADO KA NA. PUTANGINA MO KA!!!!!!!!!!

*whew* sarap...

walang pakialamanan.

2004-03-12T11:02:00.000+08:00

Mac

iBook, iMac, eMac... Do I want one of these UNIX driven machines? Despite the "cool" look and feel of these systems.. I'd have to say NO for a number of reasons...

1.) Price.. too expensive.

2.) I just dont see the point of some features... does the movie really have to be playing while minimized? I mean.. that's just a waste of resources. Genie effect? Puh-leeezee. The speaker did the demo the exact same way Jobbs din when I first saw the product launch for OS X... and i had the same reaction for both times: "Kailangan ba ganon?"

3.) You can't build your own Mac... because as CP said, they own the hardware, the OS, the applications... and not being able to build your own system is just.... SAD.

Mac things I like: Dock. iPod. form factor.

Babykins... good luck with your thesis defense on Saturday... go kick some ass... remember... It's not what you said, it's how you defend it. I love you.

Kittykat: salamat sa bracelet.

He-who-must-not-be-named: buy a wig.

2004-03-10T03:39:00.000+08:00

brain dead

hhmmmm... wala lang... all of this is surreal... totoo ba lahat ito? nasenti talaga ako kanina... habang nag-iikot kami sa recto... naghahanap ng bookbind... wala lang... tapos na talaga eh. tapos na ang lahat.

nanalo daw ako, di ko pa actually nakikita, nabalita lang sa akin... best thesis... astig... flattering talaga... pero for me, may mas deserving sa award na yon...

Random Thoughts
1. I'll miss the chonggos.
2. I'll miss the crazy YM conferences discussing VB.
3. I'll miss all my other classmates from BC4A.
4. I'll miss cramming.
5. I'll miss Angelicum.

2004-03-07T21:06:00.000+08:00

Ilang taong nagsama
Nabuo ang isang barkada
Ilang sandali na lang
at magwawalay na

Ngunit ang barakada
ay hindi mawawala
Pagka't samahan nito
ay wagas.

Paalam kaibigan
Sana'y hindi pa muna
Masakit man sa damdamin
Ngunit kailangang
magwalay tayo ng landas natin

Isipin mo na lang...
meron kang kaibigan
na nagmamahal sa iyo

Merong mga tampuhan
May saya at kalungkutan
Ngunit hindi nawawala
ang samahan

At kahit saan ka man
ngayon kaibigan.
Kailan man tayo'y
magkaibigan.

Paalam kaibigan
Sana'y hindi pa muna
Masakit man sa damdamin
Ngunit kailangan na
na magawalay tayo
ng landas natin

Isipin mo na lang
meron kang kaibigan
na nagmamahal sa iyo

2004-03-07T01:02:00.000+08:00

It has come to pass...

The last class of my college life is over... finally. It certainly took long enough, but I think I've done it. All that remains is to check the grades on Monday and to hand in the Thesis requirements. Damn... suddenly, I dont wanna talk about this... I feel sadness coming over me... the loss of my friends... the end of college life...

2004-03-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

BEST THESIS
Sino ang mananalo? Gusto ko ba manalo? Hmm.... hipokrito naman ako sabihin ko na ayaw ko dahil syempre masarap ang kinikilala ka ng peers mo di ba? wala ako pakialam sa vote ng prof. yung peers ang importante. Pero honestly, the best ang batch namin. Astig ang creative talents ng mga kaklase ko. Bahala na si Batman sa results. Onga pala the thesis I wanted to vote for wasn't eligible due to bullshit. That sucks. Oh well. Live. Die. Learn.

288 pages. Yan ang dami ng pahina ang report namin sa Fireworks Mx 2004. With detailed pics. Ouch. Printer was hurting awhile ago...asking for mercy.
Ink= Gone. Damn. All in the name of a stupid piece of paper called a diploma.

Random thoughts

1. I want a ring-binding machine. It's cool.

2. Ba't di mo ko kinausap sa fne? Sana kanina mo pa kinausap yung bestfriend mo.

3. Magulo ang chi-squared.

4. Excel is cool. Lots of graphs and $hit like that.

5. Boracay... mananatili ka bang pangarap lamang?

2004-03-05T08:02:00.000+08:00

TREADING WATER

I passed my swimming final (hooray!)... I spent most of yesterday handing out post-survey forms. I was so tired that by that I went to sleep at 10:30 pm which, if you know me, is a very rare occurence.

Obstacles left: CGA, MICRO, The Evil Empire.

Random thoughts:
1. I think, therefore I am.

2. Why would 4th yr comsci students STEAL 3 hard drives? We dont have time to do that! Besides, we'd go for the PRINTER and not the hard drives ;)

3. I hope Friendster blows up (hypocrite).

4. Why isn't there a nearby branch of CDR-KING?

5. Lost in the Translation

2004-03-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

Read the fine print

D@MN!!! sa tingin ko ay alam ko na kung bakit ayaw gumana nung installer ng thesis ko.

Install the SAPI 4.0 runtime support below if you are using the Windows XP operating system and intend to use any of the speech components here with Microsoft Agent.

DAMNIT TALAGA! tagal ko na pinagiisipan. sana ay eto na. bukas ay susubukan.

Anyway, finals ko sa swimming tomorrow... sana ay kayanin ko. tsaka sana may titser na pumunta sa iskul, para may mapost survey ako. uhm.. ano pa ba? I LOVE ANNA FRANCHESCA DEROCA!! Mushy ba? wag ka makialam! blog ko to eh! uhm... yun lang.

RESULTS OF PERSONALITY TEST
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

2004-03-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

REFLECT

Madali iparamdam ang pagmamahal kapag ayos kayong dalawa... ang mahirap, iparamdam ang pagmamahal kapag nag-aaway kayo.

2004-03-02T02:35:00.000+08:00

SOB

I hate crying.

Thank God for kleenex

2004-02-29T20:19:00.000+08:00

The End is near

Whatever the outcome of this melodrama... it is about to end. I can only hope and pray... Our convention yesterday was great. Mayabang ba? eh sorry naman.. pero sa totoo lang.. astig talaga. Magaling yung speakers..especially the guy from the school for mind expansion. There was free ice cream. The speakers were given excellent lunches and a terrific gift pack from Marks and Spence as well as a plaque and gift certificates from a health spa. Basta... astig talaga.

I want to apologize to Anna... if you are reading this, I want you to know that I love you... no lies... no tricks. no games.... thats just the truth. I'm very sorry for what happened last night... It won't happen again. Congratulations on your second PEP championship =)

I have to go... we STILL have more work to do (Casestudy,Finals). Ciao.

Random thoughts
1. Pizza tastes great, especially when FREE.
2. Stop. Look. Listen... then React.
3. Ginebra won! hooray!
4. I miss my grandma
5. FPJ is an idiot.

2004-02-28T03:03:00.000+08:00

MAGKANO ANG ISANG PROGRAM?

Kung ako ay papalarin na grumaduate... feeling ko malulugi ako, dahil hindi ako marunong magpresyo ng program. hahaha. Kakagawa ko lang nga 6 na program sa C... wala lang.. sa totoo lang kasi... kahit nerd pakinggan, masarap mag program. Iba ang sarap na nararamdaman ko kapag may nagawa ako na di ko magawa-gawa sa isang program. Sense of achievement ika-nga.

At ngayon... pagkatapos ko mag blog, sisimulan ko na ang certificate design para sa "convention" namin bukas. Sana ay may taong dumating dahil maraming tao ang naghirap ibangon ang convention na ito. Lalo na si Kat, John, Koree at Joy. Best conventionists sila.

Akala ko pagkatapos ng thesis, makakatulog na ako.. yun pala hindi pa din. Onga pala, kung may nagbabasa man nito na ibang tao at nagtataka kung ano nangyari sa defense ko, ok naman po. Sa totoo lang, joke lang yung ginawa kong system... natuwa lang cguro ang ibang tao sa ibon ko.
O? bat ka nagreact? bastos ka kasi! Yung ibon sa system ko ang tinutukoy ko!

Random thoughts

1.Money makes the world go round, sad but true.

2.Love is a decision and not a feeling.

3.God please bless Telebenta.

4.Piggy banks are neat.

5.Mahal na mahal ko ang nanay ko.

2004-02-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

Que Sera Sera

Whatever will be, will be. Astig... now, can someone please explain what the hell that means? *sighs* in this pithole called life, how can be sure that something is meant to be? The easy answer would be to say that you can never be sure of such things. However, I believe that there are always tell-tale signs regarding what we are destined to do in life, all we have to do is to interpret these signs.

Random thoughts:

It takes less than 5 seconds to say "I Love You", but a lifetime to prove it.

Posters and streamers: P3,000.00
Food and seminar kit : P4,000.00
Tickets and Invitations: P 600.00
March Graduation : Priceless!

for everything else, there's the class fund.

2004-02-26T04:20:00.000+08:00

HOY! kung sino ka man! God is good. hahahaha. trippin... dis-oras na ng gabi....gcing pa ako.. dahil 4ever crammer ata ako... wahhahaa... Let me share with you guys a favorite saying of mine: "Time space warp... nagyon din."

I can't sleep... I keep thinking about all the things that could go wrong, and probably will go wrong and make this "convention" a disaster. (Hey, it's a LAW right?).

The problem with politics in the Philippines is simple: It's a BIG Joke! Political parties in this country never really mean anything other than a temporary bandwagon aimed towards putting a politician in power in order to amass as much wealth as possible during their tenure. I have personally seen how rotten this beaurocracy is and how majority of public officials scheme on how to get back the millions they spent during the campaign period. If you think about it logically, who in their right mind would spend hundreds of millions of pesos to be elected to a position that pays around 50 thou a month?

Random Thoughts : Int(Rnd*6)
1. Is Barney the dinosaur gay?
2. Or is he just a big-ass WIMP?
3. Isn't technology amazing? It has provided students a multitude of options when it comes to academic endeavors. (e.g. Google,YM, SMS)
4. My PC needs a reformat.
5.The person you love most is the person that hurts you the deepest.

2004-02-25T02:06:00.000+08:00

Damn the man for I am the man, and the man is damned.

2004-02-24T00:40:00.000+08:00

boring day... wahahahaha.... i'm sad... wala lang..... just sad... ndi naman po dahil sa baby ko we're not fighting... ewan ko... topak lang cguro... basta sad lang ako today... yun lang...

2004-02-22T02:20:00.000+08:00

Well.. first of all.. bati na kami ni Anna... we met up awhile ago... galing nila... GO ST. SCHOLASTICA PEP SQUAD! CHAMPION- WNCAA Cheerleading competition. galing galing babykins ko Ü...

Next.. well kakatapos lang ng retreat ko... and eto ang mga taong na nakita kong umiyak kanina: Joy, Jo, Rodel, Kat, John, Eva, Reena, Meanne, Razen, Franjo, Koree. Yan lang naman ang nakita ko... maaring meron pang ibang umiyak... hmmm.. oks naman ang retreat.. pwede na... game naman ang karamihan ng tao... masarap ang pagkain... sarap maglakad dun sa may mga kubo... interesting... Ü

Anyway... eto ang mga kakaibang tanong,banat at opinyon ko sa sa retreat:
1) Kaklase mo ba ako dahil kaibigan mo ako or kaibigan mo ako dahil kaklase mo ako?
2) Ang mga homosexuals ba ay nagj@j@kol?
3.)Eric deserves nothing...
4.)... but Rainier is the best.
5.)Tama bang pagusapan ang lasalle sex scandal sa retreat?
6.)Malupit din naman ang comsci, huli matulog, una gumising, una pumasok sa dining area, huli lumabas sa dining area.
7.)Astig yung pari.
8.)pero mas astig ang Sakristan! Ü
9.)Di ako umiyak.. ang ibig ba sabihin nito ay ako ay bato?
10.) Astig yung Interview with God.

2004-02-19T01:43:00.000+08:00

WHAT A NICE ANNIVERSARY. AWAY ULIT. Salamat sa laging pagtiis mo sa akin.... sana ganyan ka din katigas sa mga org mo at mga kaibigan mo.

CONVENTION:- NOT(Graduate)

2004-02-14T03:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES MY DEAREST BABY IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!!!

2004-02-13T01:38:00.000+08:00

yeah boy.... astig.. patapos na ang... dulo ng walang hanggan. hahahaha
deputa talaga.... eto ang napapala ng isang linggo na thesis... pasensya na kung walang kwenta mga blog ko.. next time na lang ulit pag nasa ayos na ako.

2004-02-11T05:35:00.000+08:00

I AM THE STRONGEST LINK!

malamang photo-finish itong thesis na ito....

2004-02-10T04:42:00.000+08:00

HAHAHHAHAHAH
eto lang ha....

dadaanin ko na lang sa kanta......

yun lang..

2004-02-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

MAY BAGO AKO PRINTER Ü wala lang.... hehehe... puta.. lahat na ng chonggo ay nagkakagulo sa thesis... good luck sa ating lahat

2004-02-08T04:48:00.000+08:00

YES!!!
two words: SEARCH ENGINE!

anyway... d@mn.... sobrang pagod na ako... pero kailangan kumayod... kailangan magtiyaga... kailangan MAGDRUGS! *lolz* I love you anna! nye! out of the blue eh noh? eh ano ba pakialam mo? eh gusto ko ipagmalaki na mahal ko ang babaeng iyon. ayun. o cge na... its time to get back to work... DREAM. BELIEVE. SURVIVE.

ONGA PALA!

2004-02-05T04:20:00.000+08:00

SIGN THE GUESTBOOK!!! >>>>>>>>>>>

2004-02-05T04:19:00.000+08:00

TAPOS NA ANG BIRTHDAY KO. yun lang... hehehe.. uhm.. nilibre ako ni anna... kami ay nag-usap... pagkatapos... nagtitigan... pagkatapos... nagyakapan... pagkatapos... naghalikan... pagkatapos... tapos na. in other words, we kissed and made up kahit magkaaway kami kanina... gotta go... tulog na ako ...

2004-02-04T17:24:00.000+08:00

I am in school right now.. katabi ko si joy sa kanan, at si joanna sa kaliwa... ang klase namin ay Artificial Intelligence... kunyari nag pprogram ako pero hindi naman talaga.. onga pala.. bday ko ngayon.. wala lang... ang saya-saya sana.. pero inaaway ako ni anna eh =( wawa naman ako....

2004-02-01T10:34:00.000+08:00

Sarap matulog.... wala lang... I went out with my baby lastnight... nabusog siya sa tapa.... hehe... wala ako maisip isulat... uhm... next time na lang ulit...

2004-01-27T04:00:00.000+08:00

nothing new... gonna watch my baby's play later at UP Diliman... uhm... i added some pix.. check them out if you want to... the link is posted at the right...

haaaayy buhay...

2004-01-26T22:26:00.000+08:00

sabi ko na nga ba mag-aaway kami ngayon eh.... syempre mag-aaway kami dahil ang saya namin kagabi... dinner sa eastwood... tambay... so since happy kami kagabi... sure na away kami ngayon... haaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy

Kill Bill

2004-01-25T01:00:00.000+08:00

Wow. havent seen a movie this unique in a long time... and syempre, mas masarap manood dahil kasama ko ang babykins ko! hehe. astig sobra nung fight scenes.. hmm .. eto kakauwi ko lang... thesis nanaman... tinulugan nanaman ako ng baby ko... *sighs*.. pero ok lang... Ü dahil she made me feel so happy naman kanina. thanks for a great time baby.

Thesis update:

2004-01-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

Trying to learn Crystal Reports and Microsoft Agent. hehe. got the idea from the thesis of japok. O ayan dude ha... nagbigay galang pa ako sa yo.

2004-01-22T20:24:00.000+08:00

Galing ni Yao Ming... hehe. he's the man! hope he brings the Rockets back to the NBA Finals. hmmm.. ano pa ba? wala naman... nothing new.. just got home... working on my damn thesis again... it's a Computer-aided instruction system for C language. baduy noh? hehe. waaahh.. di pa nagttext ang baby ko... nag-rerehearse pa siya for her upcoming theatre play.... dami extra-curricular activities yon eh.. actress, dancer, pep squad... ayun lang... la lang.... onga pala... sana i'm practicing the coke commercial... ETO ANG BEAT SABAY SABAY, ETO ANG BEAT BAWAL SABLAY... hehehehe. hmmmm sige, mamaya na lang ulit....

2004-01-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

I just wanna say that I LOVE MY BABYKINS SO MUCH Ü ANNA FRANCHESCA DEROCA